Election Rant

This is so disappointing. (Pertaining to the screenshot below)

We should really remove the idea of spending too much on election paraphernalia. Later you'll know why.

We campaigned for her. Also, there are groups of people who campaigned for her and gave out the said flyers, stickers, etcetera. But is that really the point?

How much money are we going to shed just for elections, when qualifications should be the real consideration for voting? The cost of political advertisements, tarpaulins, shirts, all of these can be put into better use than for personal benefit.

What we should do as citizens is to be proactive! The laws we are enjoying, the laws that protect us, the particular law we are benefiting from... Why can't we stop for a moment and ask ourselves who made that law? Maybe you'll find yourself answering the same name most of the time, it is "Miriam Defensor Santiago."

This person, Miriam Defensor Santiago, authored some of the most important laws and bills. There is no corruption rumors about her. Only health issues, that of course, should not matter the most (like how it doesn't matter that your president is not morally upright, i.e. jokes about rape, cursed the pope, wanting to destroy international relationships, inconsistent when it comes to statements, multiple wives, the list can go on). Moreover, that person is not stupid to run if she knows death is approaching. Even her doctors said that she is recovering well.

You even said "If you wanted MDS to rise above the polls, you would've promoted her to those who are blinded of their conviction, and made people aware of what she's capable of."

Exactly my point! We've done our part! And the rest is for the taong bayan to research on their own! Ano to? Super spoonfeeding lang? Media did their part too! All those years na tinagal nya di nila nabalitaan ung mga nagawa nya? Selective listening lang ang peg ng ears? Cancer lang narinig at tumatak? Yeah, bad things tend to be remembered rather than the good things. Moreover, what Filipinos want kasi is instant! Yes, that idealist 3 to 6 months corruption-free government!

You also asked "Oh anong ginawa niyo?" and said "Tapos ngayon isisisi niyo sa taong bayan, lalaitin niyo pa? Kesyo bobo sila? Eh hindi nga sila aware kung sino talaga si MDS at ano talaga ang kakayahan niya na maiahon ang bansa. Campaign period nga eh, dapat pinagtuunan ng pansin, hindi yung pinagpabahala niyo nalang."

What we did? We did a lot without too much economic expense actually! By word of mouth, by social media, and for other volunteers, they also put up tarpaulins, gave flyers and stuff. But again, I repeat! I firmly believe that it is the collective fault of Filipinos. I wouldn't call them stupid. The term should be reactive! 

Let's put aside the fact that she is the first Filipino to be elected as a judge in an international court and the rest of her credentials. Let us ask ourselves nalang...

For women in the Philippines, who do you think authored the law that protects us?

For call center agents, who do you think pushes a magna carta to protect you?

For senior citizens who still thinks that they are strong enough to work but cannot because of the age limit/discrimination, who do you think pushes the age limit restriction to 70 years old?

For online journalists and bloggers, who do you think pushes for you guys to be included in the senate bill protecting journalists?

The list will go on and on and on.

While you are busy joining the bandwagon, so amazed by what happened in a particular province, hopeful that it will happen nationwide too, listening to baseless rumors, waiting for envelopes with money to be given, this woman out there has proven herself way longer before the campaigning period. She is doing her best to legislate laws to protect you!

For so long, yet you didn't care to notice? Yes, you didn't care! Didn't even bother to ask yourself, who has shown the most desire to protect you?! O diba, nakakainis lang.

What more if she was given the chance be the president of the Philippines! Hays!

Well, I accepted the results already. I just hope that Filipinos will be proactive rather than being reactive to popularity and just simply joining the majority's bandwagon. Let's also remove the idea that the number of campaign materials be the basis of our decisions in voting. Let's focus sa results and qualifications ng bawat candidate. Oh well, long live the Philippines!

#MDS #MiriamDefensorSantiago #Halalan2016 #WeloveMiriam

Review: Mich and Myl Nails



Day 1 in the Philippines after eight months in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia. Beauty/Personal services are so expensive back in Saudi Arabia so I opt to wait until I go home to the Philippines to pamper myself. I arrived here in PH at around 10AM. So I have enough time to "beautify" myself. =))

Okay, so while strolling at Trinoma - Landmark, I decided to have my eyelashes and nails done (since they are beside each other). I'll do a separate review about my eyelashes. :D

MICH and MYL Nails.

I thought it was pronounced as mitch but I was wrong. It is pronounced as mayk and mayl. Mayk, the abbreviation of Michael; and Mayl, the abbreviation of Mylene. They are the owners of the salon. 

First thing I do before I decide to enter a salon is to search for reviews in Google and in Facebook (just click "Facebook" if you want to see their page). I do this every single time so that I will have an idea on what to expect. :D

At that time, I cannot see any good quality reviews about it in google, so I relied from Facebook alone. I am happy with the results from Facebook. Good amount of likes and reviews compared to other branches so I decided to have my nails done with them. :>

 The receptionist was very accommodating. 
 The ambiance is very classy.
 It was a Saturday afternoon, but there were only 3 customers including me. Contrary to what I expect, thanks God I didn't wait! :x
 Regarding the nail polish, I wanted to try the "Gel Polish..." that changes colors! For the Gel polish, I heard that it lasts longer compared to a normal nail polish. For the changing of colors, they call it "two-way." There are relatively few choices. After 10 minutes of pondering :-? ... I chose the black and nude/transparent. Perfect for office! raaak \m/

Here are the pictures.

The outer color (white) represents the regular color.
The inner color (black) represents the color when it is cold or submerged to cold water.

This is the UV Lamp to "cure" or dry the nails. :D

I also availed the organic foot spa service with free pedicure. It is also good! 
(Sorry for my fat legs!)

 Regarding the price... My reaction is this: /omg

I paid a total of 1,650 PHP. 1000 for the two way polish, then 650 for the foot spa. :D

At the end, I felt good so I think it is  to pay that amount.

We all work hard, so we all deserve a good break. :)


UPDATE: It is true! It lasted for a month!!! 

Achievement unlocked: officially graduated from college

Praise the Lord!

“The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet.”

SA WAKAS GRUMADWEYT DIN! Tapos na naman ang isang yugto ng buhay. Kasunod nun, ang pagbukas ng bagong pahina ng bagong yugto ng buhay. Excited nako sa nilalaman ng pahinang iyon! Hahaha! 

First and foremost, I thank God for his unending grace and blessings. 

 Dedicated to my parents, relatives, ninongs, ninangs, tito, and tita who unceasingly supported me.

To my friends who gave me the strongest fighting spirit needed for surviving Manila and college life.  
To my professors from UST and teachers from Al-Hekma International School back in Jeddah who molded me into what I am today. 

To my supervisors and colleagues from Teleperformance who didn't stop encouraging me even after I resigned.

Lastly, to my long-time boyfriend, for being the super hero, always being there to listen to all my rants and woes.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! Without you guys, I will never be where I am today. :)

No trial and error.

Some people say that it doesn't matter. Well for me, it does matter. No matter how many times we love again, nothing can compare the way we love our first one. To clarify things, don't misunderstand love with infatuation, flings, MU (mutual understanding), short term relationships like 1 month - 6 months, and the rest. Romantic love is much deeper than that. The thing is that, as time passes, the world becomes so liberated and modern to the point that love is devalued to a term that you can say to anyone of your favor or interests. So becoming a fad right now. Modernization is good, but the impact on our culture and morals is dreadful and rancid. 

Let me tell you where I'm coming from. My first boyfriend - my first love - my first man. :) 

In my perspective, I feel sullied with the thought of having another guy in my life. Not because of dirty stuffs like sex and kisses. Aint doing that till I'm marrried. Sooo, I like to reiterate what I said in my previous entries, I don't follow the thought of trial-and-error in relationships. I am up for a serious one. I am up for a till-death-do-us-part kind of relationship. I believe in marriages and I want to fulfill my role walking down the aisle someday. Traditional right? I don't care. But it is the most romantic, sincere and passionate of all.

I don't like the idea of a memory on top of another memory. I'm not fond of creating chapters of different guys in my life. I'm not intrigued towards the feeling to be held in another man's arm. I am not the type of woman who have the tendencies to get sick of a man because of the lengthy time we had and finding adventure in other man's territory. Surely I get tired, but I am not the kind who gives up. Even if I spend the rest of my life waiting for him, I don't mind. I'll just keep a blind eye to other guys who is just usually initially interested.

I don't try to fix the broken glass or something, I just clean up the mess and probably get a new glass but it doesn't mean i'll change the content of the glass, if I'm drinking water, then just put water again. After all it's what I desire. Same with hearts at that point, in case my heart is (in literary version) broken, then i will just clean up the mess and get a new heart but love the same person again. Stupid, martyr, whatever title suits me, I don't care.  After all hearts don't literally break. It just pumps blood or so I think. Lol I hope you get my point.

Moving on, I just can't accept the fact that a memory is on top of another memory cause I feel it is pretty unfair to the man you're about to love next. You'll be creating memories on top of your precious memories from your ex isn't it? To forget a memory is impossible, especially if it is your first, since it had an impact on you. Well, every time you create memories with your second you find it inevitable to think that maybe what you did is also the same from what you did with your ex. Do you get my point?

If ever in history, there will be a time, that human kind will have an option to reset their memory and clean it then maybe that is the time I'll entertain the thought of having a next relationship. Basically, I just want to start clean and pure, empty of promises and adventures, just full of excitement and curiosity, empty of romantic memories, full of love to give and share, innocent and naive, unconditional love to give and no hints for predictability. That's the perfect start of a meaningful and long-lasting relationship. Lasting love will bloom, and equal levels of love will be shared. No one loving the other more. So romantic. So sweet. So sincere. A relationship made lasting with unparalleled genuine efforts because of the virtuous, unadulterated mind, heart and soul of a human.

(there is more to this but I'm sleepy so yea, goodnight!)


To love is to leave yourself hanging.

                     You don't think of yourself, can't even bother to. All attention diverted to your partner. When you buy for yourself, you think twice, thrice or quadruple times! And it so amazing that when you buy for your partner, you don't even need to think, even once! It's amazing that love will do this to a once very selfish person like you. 

Indeed, love is like that. But only at first.

                    You may leave yourself hanging at first, but you will get back at the right track in the long run. Let's use myself as an example. At first I strongly felt the same way. Definitely I lost myself to love. But it is also love who brought me back to myself again. If you know what I mean. It's definitely hard to explain, but I am doing it for the sake of sharing. Losing balance, straying off from the right path, forsaking your own safety and needs - these have been happening to me. Every now and then. Yet I improved significantly. I have been grasping things every now and then, looking for my own balance, finding it, losing it, finding it, endless cycle. I know I am a sucker at balancing. Well the balance here is the weight of my love to myself compared to my partner. It is like being stupid to being wise; being fool to being clever.

                       So this balance I've been stressing off for a while really matters a lot. Let's say perhaps my love for my partner is taking up so much space in my heart that the love for myself got only 2%, what do you think would happen to me if my dearest partner leave me? The answer will be: my world will crumble. I intently use the word 'will' cause I am pretty sure about this if this was my case. And it did happen for a week indeed. But after the crumbling of my world, and my balance set at point zero, everything turned out well eventually. A proof that there is a rainbow after the rain. My world didn't exactly fix itself. Some pieces are lost and I know they are finding their way back. Some are totally gone, known by instinct. But everything goes naturally, nothing could go back to perfect once broken.

                     In simple words, that was the first time my heart did break.  I mean it literally because I can feel needles, a thousand or more needles piercing in my heart. That tiny little awful pain in your heart repeating again and again when you are hurt, or when you reminisce every bad moment in your whole relationship. Again, can you see now the importance of balance? Yes fucking balance. Well the most I could do if I put it into mathematical statements: I would love my partner 70% and myself 30%. However, it only applies in this world, externally. But in my world? I love myself and my partner without numbers, and I dare to say infinitely. I believe my heart, and every heart is bottomless, with a space extending beyond our body, beyond the realms of the unknown. Love is all around us. It is the nucleus of every matter and energy, chemically, scientifically, and biologically speaking. 

Isn't it nice? To strongly believe in something. You, do you have a proposition? :)


by Ren Concha

The spaces between our fingers
The emptiness that lingers

This intense emotion of neither happiness nor sadness
This poignant eyes desperately yearning for belongingness

A human being living with such history
Suffering the ruins in deep solitary

How could she ever be brimming of radiance
When the riddle of love is an extreme hindrance

Such puzzles entwined preordained to torment
The labyrinth of unknown serpents as opponent

Each moment left in wide isolation
Appears this anxious feeling of desolation

Apparently you are the only answer and resolution
To every problem of mine that needed a solution

Probably you are the answer to the riddle
And the path to the labyrinth's puzzle

Play the role you are predestined to in my life's tragedy
and Make the rest a worthwhile transformation to romance-comedy

Rants of fallen woman

Eyes closed
I can still feel his breath near me..
I can still hear his voice full of affection..
Then I opened my eyes
With the thought of wanting to hug him
But the moment I opened my eyes
He is nowhere in my sight
Then I came to realization
That, that was just an illusion

When will I ever wake up
And live once again
Make a meaning to my existence
Make up to every moment that's lost
I feel emptiness
I feel betrayal
But no one cares
The world still goes on
This self-pity
This unimaginable misery
The ruins of the broken heart
needless to say,
the scarred soul

I became a beast
The moment I believed in
They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
They say forever is real
What now

Honestly I couldnt live on
Kissing the old pictures
Reminiscing old happiness
Rereading our old conversations
Fixing the broken things
Hurting myself in doing that
Cursing the time
Everyone says move on
My mind agrees
My heart continues to sink
A human being not human
I dont know

Blaming other people
Hating myself
Hating the world
inevitable changes
in rage
full of fire

the man I ever love
my first love, my first boyfriend
my first memories, my everlasting happiness
firsts dont give a damn
i need you to be my last
i need myself to be your last

yes long agony
a lifetime of agony

on bended knees crying softly
that softly goes loudly
such a total mess I have become
where are you
i plea
i beg
for your love
to welcome you back
to imagine you are here
my dignity lost
i know its not right
i know there's no excuses
i know it is a crime
to love too much
is truly a crime
with a punishment of a lifetime suffering and scars

i just want you to love me again
but it seems like a mission impossible for you
i want to see you happy
but i want to see myself happy too.

so im terribly
very sorry,
it would take a lifetime for me
to learn the art of letting go.

Rant again

by Ren Concha

the ocean cries
light to dark
everyone dies
left no spark

red to blue
what it means
old to new
i wish it was

playing with words
really fun
jungling swords
dead and gone

you understand
pointless structure
breaking bond
you get the picture

Ano ba talaga?

Ano ba talaga?
by Ren Concha

Mahirap makipagsapalaran sa larangan ng pag-ibig.
Maraming hindi inaasahan, hindi rin maiaalis ang masaktan.
minsan puno ng panaghoy, minsan puno ng saya
ngunit konti lang ang pinalad, nakahihigit parin ang nabibigo.

May mga nararamdamang hindi maipaliwanag,
hindi rin maisiwalat.
Bawat sandali ay puno ng mysterio
Tila ba'y nababalot ng majika.

Hindi maipaliwanag ang ganda ng ngiti kapag kayo na
hindi rin maipintang mukha kapag naghiwalay na.
Samu't saring katanungan ang bumabagabag
Tulirong tuliro sa buhay

Ano ba talaga

Minsan kasi mas mahal ni babae si lalaki
Minsan din mas mahal ni lalaki si babae
Bakit hnd pwedeng parehas ng gramo ng pagmamahal
Wala ng mas pa o nakalalamang

Ang hirap eh, magulo talaga eh
Hinagpis nalang dahil kulang ang salita
Nakakabwisit, nakakainis
Bakit hindi pwede maging pantay

Kailangan pa kasi mawalan ng gana
Bat pa kasi may pustahan pa ng paramihan ng minahal eh
Bat pa kasi may singit na third party kung minsan
Nakakairita sa pakiramdam

Lalo na kapag first time mong magmahal
Hindi mo alam kung anong tawag sa pakiramdam na yun
Kapag ipinapaliwanag sa salita
Parang nasa bingit ka ng hiwalayan

Desperado ka na buhayin ang namamatay na apoy
Lahat ng effort gagawin mo
Magbubulag bulagan sa sakit ng paso na natatamo
Mapasiklab lang muli ang apoy na naglalaho na

Minsan napapagod na
pero paggising hala sige sa parin sa pagsuyo
ngunit dati naman ikaw ang laging sinusuyo
sakto talaga ung kantang 'Tunay na mahal'
try mo pakinggan

minsan naiisip na maghanap nalang ng iba
pero kasi natatakot makarma
kaya wag nalang
hala sige nalang sa pagpapakatanga

umaasa nalang dumating si prince charming
pero umaasa din na bigla siyang magbago
at hilahin ang kamay ko
at suotan ng singsing

nakakatakot talaga ang pag-ibig
san san dinadala ang imahinasyon mo
kani kanino nalang binibigay ang puso mo.
bigla nalang din, sanhi ng kamatayan mo

hays tama na nga
baka tamarin na ang mambabasa

Love and Happiness

Love and Happiness
by Ren Concha

needle-like things piercing through my heart,
enough for separating my body and soul apart.
you know what it means when its life and death
slowly, gradually, rapidly taking away my breath.

is this what you call pain or is it some other feeling
in crowd you smile as if the ache is not even hurting
smiling, laughing, wishing someone would save you
inside the cage, crying, shouting, someone would free you

where is the key to eternal happiness
does it even exist in this darkness
loving someone wouldn't mean happiness
it also means being trapped in darkness